Sun doesn't sleep at all -
So during that short time
I'm hitting my head at the wall -
This is my entire line.

The moon shines because of sun.
Yesterday I saw a man
Who has been holding a large gun -
He got too much sun tan.

The Earth makes rounds?
I have lost ten pounds
Just for to be sure about thing
Which usually goes to string.

Do the sun, earth or moon
Care about running steps
While everything seems to be cool
And everybody from nobody helps?

People are strange -
They think that everything can change
If you feel like having time
For to get the lightest shine.

So it mostly means that we
Don't have time like a bee
Who is a part of sun
But doesn't need any gun.

Let's shoot the moon, earth, sun around
For to feel like having time for sound
Which comes from your deepest part
And ends in the tale of shark.

 

 

Once you wake up after the day called today

Don’t put your minds so far far away

As there is no realistic reason for

To feel the same as you have done before.

If you think that time goes fast

Please, look sometimes at your own past

Which is going to show you a kind

Of things you like to leave behind.

Wash your face, take a shower,

Try to feel like you are on the top of tower

Which is not going to fail you down

Nor make you feeling proud.

And there is no need to use some glue

For to fit you in the place of being true

Because the water always comes to it

When you are trying to think a bit.

There is no reason feeling sorry

Because they always tell you not to worry

And really doesn’t matter how you make your bed

As at the end your desires must be fed

By the things which seems so hard to do

Without any other member of a crew.

I have bought a new gloves
As I don't know where is my old ones.
It's not because cold
It's just because of lost-
You should better stay at home.
Nights are full of shiny darkness
Streets are bold without a sadness
And you are standing there with your new gloves
Without any kind of brilliant sense-
You shoul better stay at home.
Turn on your volume higher
And be the best liar-
Buy a bottle of a white wine
For to sing as loud as you can.
It's cold.
You have left your gloves somewhere
And you even don't mind where...
Drink your wine
And waste your time.
It's too cold -
You should better stay at home.

....

 

When a strong drops come down your face and when the sun isn't going to show up, you are feeling wet and out of order. It's not because of feeling cold or wet. It's because it's the first time when you woke up...

There is no reason to say that everything goes around while you are still standing and thinking how to be the best. But at the end of the rain you start making rounds! Why? Because you have never felt such a deep power of falling rain...

Dažnai net nepastebiu, kad bijau gatve besiblaškančio šuns, apsvaigusio, rusiškąjį žodyną vartojančio, vis "laimės nerandančio" piliečio ar šalia sujudėjusio lapo. Aš ne tik bijau, bet ir ignoruoju. Galbūt, tai yra vienas iš dviejų būdų(kitą visada susigalvojame, kai nutinka kas nors "katastrofiško"), padedančių apsiginti. Tačiau geriau yra pulti, o ne stovėti ir grožėtis išmetamųjų dujų rūke paskendusią baltažiedę.

Ir štai pavasaris. Tik kvapas ne toks, kaip prieš metus - jis fobiškai jaudinantis. Spalva net nežavi, kai jos neužuodi dėl savo kaltės. Savaime suprantama, kaltės jausmas irgi baugina, bet juk niekas negali būti geras, kol tas medis, metantis šešėlį ant važiuojamosios kelio dalies, trukdo visai neseniai naują automobilį (dažnai tai kažkas panašaus į vadinamąjį "džipą") įsigijusiam eismo bei kitų neformalių akcijų dalyviui. Todėl, ir taip jau vos gyvas medis - pašalinamas. Argi tai blogai? Juk dabar vienai iš penkių tūkstančių asocialių šeimų bus proga padovanoti medienos. Bet aš kažkodėl vis tiek bijau.

Vakar grožėjausi dangumi. Buvo tamsu (turbūt apsiniaukę), vėsu, bet gera. Pradėjo lašnoti tiesiai man į veidą. Vienas lašų netyčia nuriedėjo iki lūpų ir aš pajaučiau lietaus skonį. Tada tarsi sustingau - pernai jis buvo beskonis. Pagalvojau, kad kažką užmiršau ir išsigandau. Bet vis dar gėrėjausi tamsia erdve. Visgi pavasaris, negi nesidžiaugsi tokia dovana, už kurią iki šiol nemokėjai? Tai lyg akcija, tačiau už tą bevertį daiktą tu nieko nemoki, kad gautum dar vieną beprasmybę. Argi nešaunu? Tiesiog pasakiškai erzinanti realybė, kuri kasdien tobulėja į kairę pusę nuo koordinačių ašies pradžios.

Džiaugiuosi pavasariu, nes jis pilnas chaotiško beviltiškumo. Bijau, laukiu, kol ateis, o kai ateina - bandau išprašyti.

 

Sninga. Stovi mergytė kieme.
Pirštas burnoj,
sparneliai šiek tiek sukelti į viršų

snaigės atsispindi
viena nuo kitos
viena nuo kitos viena

pamiršo

have you ever tried to show that you aren't empty inside? me too. i have tried. but it wasn't a good idea. and it kills sometimes. but nothing is so deep as my minds.

in fact, there  is nothing logic on this earth.  and me too. who am i ? only a spot.nothing else.

wake up. look at the sky. try to feel how much he likes your looking. if not you, he couldn't smile when it is raining, he couldn't be warm when it is snowing. try to hug him before you are going to sleep 'cause he really needs this. he needs to feel your warm arms and your beautiful smile. he needs to smel your hair and kiss your neck. he needs to look at your eyes and say how much he loves you.

he is always looking at you when you are sleeping and he is thinking how to make you happy. but in all ways you are not giving up. he tries to make you happy with his love but you think that his feelings aren't true. he tries to show you that you are the great person, that you deserve something more than just tears and cold nights. he wants to touch you, to feel you and to love you. he doesn't want to see you sad always. he wants to make you smile...

and you gave up...yeah, now you understand that you was a fool that you gave up. but you did it and you can't change this. you fall in love with him.with him, with your sky...you was happy when you could talk with him, ou smiled just for him, you forgot all bad things.you needed and you still need him by your side. you are dieing how much you need his arms and deep unknown eyes. you can't fall asleep while he doesn't say 'sweet dreams my sweety'. you could give away everything just if somebody would let you to kiss him...but...of course, you are too little. you are too little for to love him. he is strong, beautiful and good talking sky.and you? what about you? you are just body, who doesn't know what does it want. right? i know, your feelings are very strong but somewhy he doesn't want to accept this.

it's hard to know that he doesn't want to be with you now...he changed his mind. but you can't tell him that he must to be with you. if he loves you, he will be with you. you are feeling damaged more than before this sky. but it's life. IT'S YOUR LIFE. i'm sure that you don't want it to call by life but it is so. i know that you wanted to be happy and that you found that happyness in your sky. but this dream ended. i don't know what does he think but i know that you are still in love...

 

who is that sky?

 

 

hold on little girl.

 

try to close your eyes...try to close them and see who is standing near your favourite star.by the way, do you have your favourite star? you must have it. and when you'll see who is there, try to catch it. but i'm sure it will be very fast...but don't be sad! if you'll want, you'll have it. 'cause you know how much wishes can come true if you really wish them:) i'm sure that you knew this. so when you'll catch it, please, be careful and don't let it go. 'cause you don't know what will you lose!!!!just imagine how it would be nice to have something near you always...can you? i guess no :) so, try to be strong with it. 'cause you know, it is from the sky....and sky is very high...track it?

 

 

 

 

             she - one unreal girl. she was about 17 years old. girl had mother, father and two sisters. one of the sisters was younger and another one - older.in fact she had a perfect life. she had a lot of friends who were always around her. but she needed something unknown. she was walking alone in the park and palying with snow. but the girl felt empty inside. at home her mother always met her with some of replics.but sometimes mother looked very sweet and really serious. so, her mother talked a little bit with her. but they were not so close friends. something was wrong in their social. another one person - her father. he was great person. he always interseded her. it looked like he won't let her give up. but the father wasn't a good friend too. she couldn't tell him what do she feel or something else. he wouldn't be understand her. but he was a good company. the little sister was lovely and sweet creature. she always played with her, read talles, sang songs. that little angel really loved the girl. maybe sometimes she got angry on her but after few minutes everything there were very good. the older sister was like an old and bad known friend. she have never told to the girl that she looks great or that she really loves her like a sister. that big sister usually tried to say that the girl is just a thing in their house. so this sister couldn't be the best friend too.

              the girl liked painting a lot. sometimes she was drawing all the day and nobody knew where is she. it was like a second her life. she liked listening to music. it was a soul music and soft rock. you could always hear this kind of music in her room. this girl tried to write some poems. i guess they were not bad but she though different. so nobody had read them. maybe just one time. the girl loved guitars. she was dreaming about them always, she listened them per nights. she dreamed to buy one for herself, but...but her mother told that she can't buy a guitar 'couse her mother was sure that the girl will be a bad player. so, she didn't  buy it. but she was still listening guitars music. the girl had one love - snow. in the winter she was different when ever before. she smiles more when she can see the snow. it gives a wings for her.

              in fact she was in a deep depresion. she felt a bad air around her and it made her different than before. she started to stay longer near pc, she didn't believe in anybody. somebody told, that it's not her. but she still  was the same. inside she was the same girl, the same person. just nature and people changed her a little bit. she didn't want to hurt anyone and i guess she really didn't. but who knows. she started to drink coffee and to stay always alone. it looked like she had put an aquarium around her. nobody knew what's wrong. but it was normal. it was her own life, which stopped.

               who knows what was wrong with her. but she was happy. she was really happy and she talked perfect. but nobody knows who is she. and they won't know 'couse she was the only one so real and interesting girl with all her white and blue days.

 

 

 

he said : don't be stupid!!! who can be afraid of mouses??? just you!! you are a fool girl!!

later she said : what's wrong? why are you sad? i guess you don't want to tell me. and it's better for me.i'll live calm.

little one said : i hate you !!! and i don't love you no more!!!

that bigger : hey, you!  look at the miror! and you'll run away when you'll see something. you are really silly if you think that we will be a good friends one day. it won't be never 'couse i don't want to have a friend like you. i have a lot of friends who aren't so stupid.

i say : FLY.....

 

 

 

 

 

 

is it possible, that somebody is so strange today? sure it is. do you know why? because today is another day...

 

leave at your own chosen speed. i'm not the one you want babe, i'm not the one you need. to protect you and depend you where you were right or wrong. it ain't me. go lightly from the banch go lightly on the ground. i'm not the one you want i only let you down.

you say you are looking for someone. someone to close her eyes to you ,someone to close her heart.  someone to open each and every door for you. but it ain't me babe.