she - one unreal girl. she was about 17 years old. girl had mother, father and two sisters. one of the sisters was younger and another one - older.in fact she had a perfect life. she had a lot of friends who were always around her. but she needed something unknown. she was walking alone in the park and palying with snow. but the girl felt empty inside. at home her mother always met her with some of replics.but sometimes mother looked very sweet and really serious. so, her mother talked a little bit with her. but they were not so close friends. something was wrong in their social. another one person - her father. he was great person. he always interseded her. it looked like he won't let her give up. but the father wasn't a good friend too. she couldn't tell him what do she feel or something else. he wouldn't be understand her. but he was a good company. the little sister was lovely and sweet creature. she always played with her, read talles, sang songs. that little angel really loved the girl. maybe sometimes she got angry on her but after few minutes everything there were very good. the older sister was like an old and bad known friend. she have never told to the girl that she looks great or that she really loves her like a sister. that big sister usually tried to say that the girl is just a thing in their house. so this sister couldn't be the best friend too.

              the girl liked painting a lot. sometimes she was drawing all the day and nobody knew where is she. it was like a second her life. she liked listening to music. it was a soul music and soft rock. you could always hear this kind of music in her room. this girl tried to write some poems. i guess they were not bad but she though different. so nobody had read them. maybe just one time. the girl loved guitars. she was dreaming about them always, she listened them per nights. she dreamed to buy one for herself, but...but her mother told that she can't buy a guitar 'couse her mother was sure that the girl will be a bad player. so, she didn't  buy it. but she was still listening guitars music. the girl had one love - snow. in the winter she was different when ever before. she smiles more when she can see the snow. it gives a wings for her.

              in fact she was in a deep depresion. she felt a bad air around her and it made her different than before. she started to stay longer near pc, she didn't believe in anybody. somebody told, that it's not her. but she still  was the same. inside she was the same girl, the same person. just nature and people changed her a little bit. she didn't want to hurt anyone and i guess she really didn't. but who knows. she started to drink coffee and to stay always alone. it looked like she had put an aquarium around her. nobody knew what's wrong. but it was normal. it was her own life, which stopped.

               who knows what was wrong with her. but she was happy. she was really happy and she talked perfect. but nobody knows who is she. and they won't know 'couse she was the only one so real and interesting girl with all her white and blue days.

 

 

 

he said : don't be stupid!!! who can be afraid of mouses??? just you!! you are a fool girl!!

later she said : what's wrong? why are you sad? i guess you don't want to tell me. and it's better for me.i'll live calm.

little one said : i hate you !!! and i don't love you no more!!!

that bigger : hey, you!  look at the miror! and you'll run away when you'll see something. you are really silly if you think that we will be a good friends one day. it won't be never 'couse i don't want to have a friend like you. i have a lot of friends who aren't so stupid.

i say : FLY.....

 

 

 

 

 

 

is it possible, that somebody is so strange today? sure it is. do you know why? because today is another day...

 

leave at your own chosen speed. i'm not the one you want babe, i'm not the one you need. to protect you and depend you where you were right or wrong. it ain't me. go lightly from the banch go lightly on the ground. i'm not the one you want i only let you down.

you say you are looking for someone. someone to close her eyes to you ,someone to close her heart.  someone to open each and every door for you. but it ain't me babe.